you don't love me anymore.

i was watching Brothers & Sisters on the telly, i think it's pretty darn brilliant. the show and its characters really manage to capture the essence of family and all its players; the overbearing mother who holds the strings and constantly runs the risk of high blood pressure, the intelligent opinionated powersuited elder sister, the middle child who feels perpetually overshadowed and insignificant, the witty articulate brother in-the-closet, the estranged daughter who just can't get along with her mother ("you can't love me.") and finally, the pampered baby of the family.

sally fields: even the way she has a meltdown reminds me of mummy - how she trembles in anger and the way she spits her words out with such vicious accuracy that hits you right where it hurts *shudders* and the words/phrases she uses? "ungrateful" "how did i ever bring up such a child?" "what did i do to deserve this?" "you only care about yourself" "if your father could see you now, he'd be so disappointed"

uh-oh. sounds all too familiar.

i could never understand the great big hullabaloo over rachel griffiths from her six feet under days but god i love her (in B&S). did you see this scene?

[Noah then asks about things with Joe, and Sarah gives him a rueful "oh, you had to ask" look and, not taking her eyes away from his face, lies that "things are good." Noah nods and tries to seem happy for her, but can't hide his disappointment.

Uneasy, Sarah gathers her things and starts to go; Noah tells her it's not a betrayal to talk about things with Joe, because they're friends. "Yeah, so you keep saying," she says, and snorts sadly, and walks past him to leave, but he stops her to ask if she left because "of us, of something that…might have happened."

She stares at him, her eyes shining. He adds that he would hate to think that. "No, no, not at all," she lies. "We have lives, families. We knew where the line was."

starts playing

She smiles bravely. He decides to go along with this, but looks sad again. She goes, and he watches her.]

- television without pity.

that look in her eyes, totally killed me.

i find it funny how women often manage to lie in the face of the ones they love, unblinkingly, when inside they're home to shattered hearts.