don't know why it struck a chord,
it just did.
actually, the answer is so obvious and in-my-face, denying it would be doing no one a favour.
i miss having a boyfriend.
so there,
i said it.
wait a minute, hold your horses!
to be a 100% totally and completely accurate
i miss the NOTION of having a boyfriend
the boyfriend bit...
err not so much, no.
with my crazy working hours, i wonder if it's feasible to carry out a PROPER relationship under these circumstances - and by 'proper' i mean the whole ten yards - DATING, ROMANCE, CANDLELIT DINNERS, LONG WALKS BY THE BEACH, FLOWERS, CHOCOLATES, HOUR LONG CONVERSATIONS OVER THE PHONE EVERY NIGHT, STARGAZING AT THE PARK [on a red & white gingham picnic mat no less!]
... this is my idea of romance/dating, i don't give a damn how exaggerated it sounds, it's my fantasy so ZIP IT! - or to have to resort to keeping (a) part-time lover(s) to occupy my free time. ha ha ha. kidding, really. no, not really. really! not really! go figure.
i must say i'm getting mentally tired just thinking of playing the whole dating game again. it feels so been-there-done-that, even though technically i've neither been there nor done that, every one of the 1.5 relationships i've been in kinda just hurricaned through the 'dating' bit straight into nothingness. just once, i'd like to take my time, not be rushed into anything and go slow: the way we all say we will, but never do.
it's ironic how much of a cynical romantic i've become; trying so hard to keep believing yet to remain in disbelief.
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