i'm going to be okay.
i'm going to be okay.
i'm going to be okay.
i'm going to be okay.
i'm going to be okay.

walking past your flat
takes genuine effort
a deep breath on my part,
a voice inside my head going
"you can do this"
i turn to glance at your kitchen
through the window,
so very empty
without you

and i keep on walking.

past the place i used to love
a home to me,
now nothing more than
a distant memory.

*deep breath*

i keep our picture on my desk
where i can see us everyday.
the one taken in front of trevi fountain
i hope my wish comes true.
just so you know,
it was about us.

i'm not going to cry now.
big girls don't cry,
so they say.
i'm stronger than i know
but

i think,
i may never get over this.
you.
us.

someday, the pain will fade
my wounds will heal
that day is not today
or tomorrow
or anytime
soon.
give me time
to grieve,
alone.

please come home.
please come home to me.
please please please
please come back.
i miss you so much
i miss you so much it kills me
that you're not here
with me.

i'd give up chocolate for life
if i could see you again.
now, we all know
what a huge sacrifice that is
for i once said
"life without chocolate is not worth living"
apparently,
you beat chocolate hands down.
anytime, anyday.