school of tough love.

as the saying goes, there's no point in crying over spilt milk. what's done is done.

all i wanted was to get through one day - heck, one morning - without a confrontation of some sort. or getting yelled at, while still attempting to detangle oneself from the bedsheets. it's highly bizarre; you're trying your utmost to lift your eyelids, awaken your braincells, sit up straight and look dignified, whilst in a state of undress, resembling a mermaid-like creature with blanket and comforter wrapped/twisted around your lower body.

you finally open your eyes to see someone standing in front of you, flinging words in your face. not to say i'm completely innocent either, i know it takes two hands to clap, but it's a little too early in the morning to say "ugh", let alone form a rationale counter-argument of any kind.

maybe uncle brian's right. it's about time i accepted the fact that our relationship is not like other normal mother-daughter relationships. at times, i envy the mothers and daughters that i see at work everyday. why can't we have that kind of relationship? why can't we go shopping together (without getting into a fight)?

why can't she be the type of mother you see in storybooks and movies? that kind of 'ice cream' mother - i can't really explain this personal analogy of mine, but i'll make an attempt - picture this: the tinkling sound of an ice cream truck as it ambles down the street. a little boy asking his mother for coins to buy an ice cream. she gives it to him, then smiles as she watches him run off. he skips back with an ice cream cone in his hand. happy thoughts all around.

why can't she look after me when i'm sick, instead of saying "serves you right!" and rubbing salt into my wound. why can't she encourage me, instead of criticising me all the time? why why why?

i do crave validation, you know. i'm only human. i have feelings too. sigh.

uncle brian's famous words:

your mother _______ to the school of tough love.

AHH. that's right. the word is 'subscribes'.

*edit
god. how "diu lian" (throw face) is this. correction: the word is "prescribes". my mother is an english teacher, i should know better.


"your mother subscribes prescribes to the school of tough love."

lesson learnt.