i need to purge.

*EDIT

what do you do when... empty promises, meaningless declarations of love, waiting by the phone all night, for a call that never comes, ditto with the unanswered smses... all becomes nothing more than customary?

i feel so hollow.

everything's going wrong; this isn't the way it's supposed to be. love relationships is are supposed to fill you up, not drain you till you feel nothing but confused and sick inside.

I NEED TO PURGE.
I NEED TO PURGE.
I NEED TO PURGE.
I NEED TO PURGE.
I NEED TO PURGE.

starting now; i'm going to delete every single email i've gotten from all of them, the saved smses, their numbers from my phone. i figure, why do i need to give myself so much unnecessary grief? just get rid of all the heartache and pain. throw away all the garbage in your life. detox.

i'll be back with my progress. off to detox!

*note: i hate being ignored.

"sometimes i feel so full of love
it just comes spilling out
it's uncomfortable to see
i give it away so easily
but if i had someone i would do anything
i'd never, never, ever let you feel alone
i won't i won't leave you, on your own

but who am i to dream?
dreams are for fools, they let you down..."

"and i wish that i could make it better
i'd give anything for you to call me, or maybe just a little letter
oh, we could start again"


*progress report:
1 number twice deleted off my handphone
several smses deleted from inbox
over 10 emails permanently deleted