my tribute to me & you
2005 came and left, now 2006's here to stay.
as this year's new year resolution #1 (which i shall strive to keep) i shall continue to be the naive gullible dreamer that i've always been and insist that the world is perfect, everyone is nice, relationships last forever and that 'the one' aka my knight on a white horse really does exist.
because... i'm tired of being cynical, and jaded, and whathaveyou.
#2 school and work is important, but having a life is just as, if not more so, important. i don't want to go through life studying and working and forgetting to just, live.
which brings me to...
#3 relationships. in the past, everytime i was going through a particularly trying time at school, i subconsciously built a wall around myself, keeping everyone and everything out. i neglected my family and friends, expecting them to automatically understand and be supportive, but in that (very long) instance, i forgot to act like a decent human being and be there for them as well; ignoring msn greetings, not replying emails, not picking up calls and/or picking up calls but putting them down just as quickly with a brisk 'i'm sorry but i'm busy, i can't talk right now.'
i behaved so selfishly, assuming that the world would revolve around me, dancing to my rhythm and working around my schedule 24/7. i forgot the simple basic fact that everyone else had a life outside of mine.
over the years i've learnt the importance of preserving the relationships in your life, the key ones especially; the precious jems in life are far and few between- the family that loves you regardless of how frequently you fart & burp without warning, regardless of the tantrums you throw and/or the way you scream & jump on the sofa when watching 'ROCKY II',
regardless of anything & everything.
the same bunch of girlfriends that have seen you grow through puberty, bitchy backstabbers and their vicious untruths, your father's death, breakups & makeup(s) [get the pun?] and all sorts of curveballs life has thrown your way. the ones whom you can not see or talk to for months on end and yet, when you meet up, everything's the same. nothing's changed.
2005 came and left, now 2006's here to stay.
as this year's new year resolution #1 (which i shall strive to keep) i shall continue to be the naive gullible dreamer that i've always been and insist that the world is perfect, everyone is nice, relationships last forever and that 'the one' aka my knight on a white horse really does exist.
because... i'm tired of being cynical, and jaded, and whathaveyou.
#2 school and work is important, but having a life is just as, if not more so, important. i don't want to go through life studying and working and forgetting to just, live.
which brings me to...
#3 relationships. in the past, everytime i was going through a particularly trying time at school, i subconsciously built a wall around myself, keeping everyone and everything out. i neglected my family and friends, expecting them to automatically understand and be supportive, but in that (very long) instance, i forgot to act like a decent human being and be there for them as well; ignoring msn greetings, not replying emails, not picking up calls and/or picking up calls but putting them down just as quickly with a brisk 'i'm sorry but i'm busy, i can't talk right now.'
i behaved so selfishly, assuming that the world would revolve around me, dancing to my rhythm and working around my schedule 24/7. i forgot the simple basic fact that everyone else had a life outside of mine.
over the years i've learnt the importance of preserving the relationships in your life, the key ones especially; the precious jems in life are far and few between- the family that loves you regardless of how frequently you fart & burp without warning, regardless of the tantrums you throw and/or the way you scream & jump on the sofa when watching 'ROCKY II',
regardless of anything & everything.
the same bunch of girlfriends that have seen you grow through puberty, bitchy backstabbers and their vicious untruths, your father's death, breakups & makeup(s) [get the pun?] and all sorts of curveballs life has thrown your way. the ones whom you can not see or talk to for months on end and yet, when you meet up, everything's the same. nothing's changed.
the ones who bring out the best in you, your absolute favourite side of yourself.
the boyfriend who welcomes you into his heart and home, who holds and comforts you when you cry, who kisses away the pain and tears, and tells you you look adorable when you know you look like crap. he who calls for no reason but to hear your voice and makes you miss him when he's sitting right next to you. he who makes everything else an afterthought. he who makes you wish life was devoid of school/work and revolved around just the 2 of you.
the boyfriend who welcomes you into his heart and home, who holds and comforts you when you cry, who kisses away the pain and tears, and tells you you look adorable when you know you look like crap. he who calls for no reason but to hear your voice and makes you miss him when he's sitting right next to you. he who makes everything else an afterthought. he who makes you wish life was devoid of school/work and revolved around just the 2 of you.
he who heals your wounded heart and makes you believe in love again.
to be continued...
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