relatively unknown.

it's times like these where i'm more than a little relieved to be a million miles away from home.

browsing through that blog, i'm reminded of why i left in the first place; why i chose to come here (and not australia) - to be rid of the superficialities of the local youth society in general, numerous mean girls and countless cliques, plus the whole system - it was becoming too much to bear, too tiring playing the popularity game. the who's who list grew longer and longer till there was nobody willing to be nobody. know what i mean?

basically, a nightmare. initially, i thought the same would apply in every country, but now that i'm here i've found it to be prevalent only in singapore - you can't walk down a/the street without being judged or given the head-to-toe. ugh. how pricky.

i recall making this statement sometime back

"some days, i wish
i could pack my bags and run away
leave and never come back.
go somewhere far far away,
where nobody knows my name and
i can do as i please. "

i stand by it, firmly.


here, i can finally breathe a sigh of relief.

it's true you know;
in this tiny town, i'm a relative unknown
(or complete unknown even)
and i couldn't care less.
i come and go as i please,
pretty much left to my own devices.

for the first time in my 20+ years,
i truly feel i'm in control of my own life.



and really...

london is simply too damn big to play the popularity name game (it sounds better) *smile*