American girl in paris.

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after the past 48 hours/nightmare i've been through, i have nothing to say except: sometimes, all it takes is one phenomenally HUGE mistake to learn one particularly HARD lesson in life and love.

damn straight i've learned it well.

(i wanted my very own carrie moment right? too bad it was of the "An American Girl (lost) in Paris" variety. never again.) fyi i'm repeating this quote like for the third time.

Carrie: Well, maybe it's time to be clear about who I am. I am someone who is looking for love. Real love. Ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, can't live without each other love. And I don't think that love is here in this expensive suite in this lovely hotel in Paris. It's not your fault. It's my fault. I shouldn't have come here.

p/s: and joleen, i've never been gladder of any other promise i've made in my life. you saved me (in more ways than one).

i absolutely refuse to be some transcontinental bootycall. i refuse to be that girl. i'm so much more than that, too bad you just couldn't see it.

oh well, tough luck charlie.