i never asked to be judged.

right now, all i want to do is hide out at home, until everything just goes away, or at least till my body manages to magically produce a chromosome to erase certain brain cells containing unpleasant memories.

i have absolutely zero desire to be around anyone who will trivialize the matter or even worse, act as if it's my fault. what i want even less is to explain myself to anyone. blame it on the excessive amount of SVU law & order/CSI/cold case that i've been potato-couching on, but don't blame it on me.

i never asked to be judged, much less by you.

i like hiding out, staying out of the public eye, relishing the freedom and ability to indulge myself in the simple things in life; sewing badges on my v3's npcc uniform, playing badminton (our new (and only) favourite sport), eating brownies my mother bought specially for me.

it's times like these that i'm ridiculously grateful for the support i've been on the receiving end of, thank you; jobina and cindy for simply being there and being on my side, to mummy and carol and verrell for unconditionally (emphasis on unconditional) being my life my love and my backbone, to jacky for being concerned as always and expressing your anger on my behalf.

to other people who may not understand right now: i pray for your sake that you will, in time to come. love for our friendship keeps me from saying things that i might regret in the future, but do not take my silence and mistake it for hostility. sometimes keeping silent can say more than a thousand words.

i've been extremely humbled by this, but i will forget and i will move on. i have moved on in fact, i can hardly contain my excitement about an upcoming stylist stint with heineken @zouk. i'm absolutely delighted to have been given this opportunity and i'll try my darnest to make the client happy.

the silver lining in my cloud.

p/s: please pray this solo assignment thing will go well for me. *keeping fingers crossed*