dengue.

if i'm anything, it's foolish.

i perfectly aware of the fact that things/life may seem rather bleak right now, but that doesn't justify me walking to park in the middle of the night, alone, and practically offering myself as a sacrificial lamb to the bringers of dengue fever. (if there's such a thing as a sacrificial lamb, or if it's not limited to just lamb, but open to other animals too)

i walked out of there with 5 mosquito bites, and now i'm worried i'm going to contract dengue fever. oh well, i'll just have to wait it out - 5 torturous days of waiting - for the self-inflicted pain and suffering to begin.

STUPID STUPID STUPID.

dear god, please don't let me get dengue fever.
i don't want to die, not yet, not now.