skaterboy

skaterboy. skaterboy. skaterboy. skaterboy.

mine, all MINE!

thanks to agent eden, i finally have some pieces to fill in the puzzle that is skaterboy.

over the years, i have dedicated my shuttle bus rides to observing him, spying as some may call it. if i had to watch him by using reflective surfaces (say, the window?), i did it. if it meant craning my neck (potential neck sprain) just to see his adorably curly-haired head over the headrest, i did it. if it meant staying awake throughout the ENTIRE ride (a HUGE sacrifice) just to NOT risk letting him see me sleep, i did it. (i've seen him sleep before!!, well, from behind him at least)

man, i've sacrificed SO MUCH over the years for this guy. and all without his knowledge :(

agent eden discovered that my intel is accurate. he IS indeed her friend's older brother. erm.. and that was the only useful link that i made on my own. he's in melbourne now! *sad face*

i want you.

even though everyone who has ever seen you has died of shock and said they felt like vomitting. despite that, i still want you. you have been my unofficial crush since god knows when. back when i was still in my IJ uniform. when i was the little geek-ish girl with the plastic frames and braces. with or without them, you have held the title for years as the boy who holds the most power to make me run and hide whenever i see you, despite my thick skin and the inability to blush. afraid that you know i'm crushing on you and that you know i'm watching you when you obviously haven't noticed me in your life, let alone are watching me watch you.

the thing that scares me the most right now is this," i want what i KNOW i cannot have. but once i get what i want, i don't want it anymore."

i don't even know why i want you, i just do.

p/s: the most crucial piece of the puzzle is still missing. what is your name?